SUPER BAD GRAMMER WARNING>>IM TOO LAZY TO FIX IT>>SO IT MAY SOUND WIERD make th best of it...SHIT HAPPEENS MAN >>>SUCK IT UP haha
Its here, its spring time's Christmas, the events that will unfold this day will never be remembered as clear as seeing through misty fog on this sunny day journey that I'm about to embark on. Note what I just said made completely if no sense at all, tonight I was completely sketched out by something on Candlers mountain when chilling with country. It was enough to make my balls drop. Well they did drop, well not literally, but you get the drift. But something that makes my balls drop more is the realization that I holy have 2 maybe 3 weeks more till I leave to go do my summer of fun in Richmond however as of the past 30 days something new and different has come along. I hated this place until I met you, for the past 30 days I have felt more alive than ever, every little moment is now all of a sudden new and yet no matter how much time I spend with this person I don’t get tired of them. I can honestly say my last few weeks have been my best weeks at LC. Witch is rare, only thing that’s going to suck about my summer is the fact that they won’t be within a few doors away. I wish they knew that i actually do care about them and i dont look at them as some fling. WOw that was sappy paul, wanan go ahead and choke urself with a spoon, maybe play in the traffic. its wierd and rare when u meet somone and only in a few weeks u really get to know them faster and yet better than anyone else....(smack! SHUT UP PAUL KICK PUNCH owww ..wierd ass i swear) no really i did mean that what i said before...Lay me down and these waters flow and no that doesnt mean piss on me..sickos i swear.... Anyway back to saying everything and nothing at all in my random train of thought at 1 am on a Thursday morning sitting at this computer. My thoughts are mild yet worn out nothing important comes from this mouth tonight. Tonight I will say everything and nothing at all. Like I do every time I talk. somtimes the best things said are never even spoken it was just the moment. its not the parties that I will remember, its not the snowboard trips I will remember, its not the sessions in Hundley hall, well ok ill remember all those things, but most of all I will remember the movements spent exploring this little town on late night escapades. Its hard to type tonight, it’s hard to put all my thoughts down on paper, well online in this case. I think it’s this setting, I’m not in my room right now and there’s allot of light in the room but oh well I’m here and I’m content. Today I watched a video on aids and it really made me not want to hold back with life anymore. It changed my outlook, who would have thought that today I would wake up never ever thinking the same after 1 pm. I’m glad I experienced that it was an eye opener. ON a side comment I hate how people doubt people and situations because of past bad experiences. honestly I don’t hate it I do the same thing but one thing I've come to realize is everyone’s different and everyone makes mistakes its the willingness to make those mistakes to get hurt, or to feel alive. Are what makes life worth living. take risks don’t hold out put your self out there and most of all ...spend every moment with someone that will make u live life to the fullest, screw television matter of fact screw internet however I do spend countless hours reading blogs that pour out the most personal of thoughts however I gave into it and yes conformity is a social disease. Now that I’m done saying everything and nothing at all in the poorest quality and grammatically incorrect and less flattering as possible I will leave you with this. One night this week I challenge everyone that reads this. To go a place and listen to a song that inspires you and look at what's around you then actually look at it. After that take off the headphones and look at it again. Live love learn die bitches and most of all don’t give a fuck ...shit yo hahaha I know I could of probably said allot nicer of things in this post but I figured it would be better if I didn’t ...cause we all know that internet pages don’t break hearts, people do ha-ha ..God I’m gay Hahira......to the person that’s made everything absolutely awesome lately ...thank you.....Guns up nigga hahhahahahahaha (*kicks in the ass, -n- "called a fag")
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